A Promise

I had to keep a promise I made with God this week, one which I was pretty sure I wouldn't need to keep.

Last Spring I was really worried about Kellie. She occupied my thoughts constantly and was in all my prayers.  It wasn't that she was doing a lot of things wrong, but I saw too many similarities to how I was in H.S. and that was enough for me to sit up and take notice. One time when I was driving and praying (I did that a lot last year), the thought came into my head to register her at Broomfield HS. I thought it was silly bc the deadline was months in the past and it is a difficult school to get into.  But, I did it.  As I drove away I told the Lord If He wanted her to go there, he would have to get her in as I wasn't going to do any of my usual schmoozing., but if He did get her in, I would see that she went there.

All summer long there was no news.  I wanted to wait to hear from them. So, on the 11th of Aug. I took Kellie to Mountain Range and she registered for all her classes.  She was very happy and excited, and why not?  Everyone there adores her, from the principal on down. She liked her teachers, her classes-except for German, but it was an easy A.  Her ID picture was darling! Everything was good.

Tuesday afternnon I called Broomfield  to see if they had heard one way or the other and was the directed to the district where I was told that she was accepted and they had emailed me on AUG 11.  After much searching, I found it in my junk mail. I started to cry and continued crying off and on for the afternoon.

Breaking the news to Kellie was every bit as awful as I'd imagined. I can only empathize with her as the anguish she went through and the pleading heard was heartwrenching.  The only way I could do this was because I had made a promise to God and couldn't break it.  She is heartbroken.  She is devastated.  She may get over hating me when she goes to college and I will count myself lucky. 

My heart goes out to her. I love her so much and hate to see her in so much pain.  I trust the Lord to do great things and He had His hand in this.  I believe that. I can't wait to see how this year and the next will go.  Oh Father in Heaven, I'm hoping it will all be worth this.  Please let it be worth it.  Please let Kellie feel your love and care in this and understand why it happened. I love her so much and miss her love.